Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Teaching Yoga
Tonight I had a real treat. The regular yoga teacher was not feeling well and they asked me if I would teach tonight’s class. At first I was a little nervous since I haven’t had the strength to teach or do any yoga for over a month now, but something inside me told me I would be okay. Just one week ago I barely had the strength to walk down a hallway here but now I am not feeling pain and have my energy back enough to teach a Chopra Center yoga class. It almost brings me to tears… Don’t think the word miracle because I don’t believe that. I’ve worked hard to get control of my health again and I am getting what I deserve from all the positive choices I have been making. NOW, I have to give most of the credit to this change in my life to my mom and my dad. If it was not for their support and positive words they have been giving me, I wouldn’t be here right now feeling the way I do. I would be at home sick in bed or in a hospital taking morphine for my pain. When I first got here there was a part of me that wasn’t even sure I wanted to get well. I was so sick of being sick for 27 years, and now I can’t believe I ever felt that way. There is no such thing as powerless in human beings, we have that unique ability to change and start to make the right choice that can turn any problem around. This is really cool:~)
A Spider opens a door
There is an Ayurvedic saying that goes back thousands of years before the birth of Jesus that says very simply, what ever you put your attention on will grow stronger in your life.
This morning while sitting on the toilet all of a sudden a spider dropped down in front of my face. My first reaction was fear and while sitting there I swatted at the spider and tried to kill it, but it was to fast and climbed back up towards the ceiling out of reach. While finishing up on the toilet I sat there staring at the spider realizing the only reason I wanted to kill it was fear from this little itty bitty thing. As I realized this my fear subsided and I left the spider in my bathroom to do what ever it had in mind in its on little world. Fear, loneliness, guilt, anger, hatred, and all those negative emotions in life that we feel also have negative reactions on our physical bodies science has learned. Our immune system lowers as blood rushes to our muscles and our digestive system stops doing its job. Our blood pressure shoots up and a whole slew of harmful chemicals get released in our body when we have these emotions. Sometimes this is good for us like when a car in front of us slams on its brakes and we need to react at super speed. Here is another example that happened to m while sitting here at 4am typing this My daughter text messaged me this morning that she was not feeling well and that my mom was fighting with her to go to school. As they are fighting the whole attention went to how Lily was feeling like she might throw up and her fear of going to the nurse. What do you think grew stronger while we went on about this subject? The answer was her sick feelings in her body and her fear. If we could have shifted her thoughts away to anything good, positive, happy or joyful Lily would have lost all contact with any sick feelings or fear. I know this because I have to deal with that myself everyday. What I put my attention on grows stronger in my life. If I put it towards those feelings of guilt and loneliness I only feel guiltier and lonelier. When I can shift my awareness away to thoughts that are just as real but are happy and positive, my ill feelings go away and I can function no matter what my health condition is. What you pick to focus on becomes your reality, and since everyone around you has their own different reality don’t expect them do understand. That is a big step in learning to take control of ones own life.
This morning while sitting on the toilet all of a sudden a spider dropped down in front of my face. My first reaction was fear and while sitting there I swatted at the spider and tried to kill it, but it was to fast and climbed back up towards the ceiling out of reach. While finishing up on the toilet I sat there staring at the spider realizing the only reason I wanted to kill it was fear from this little itty bitty thing. As I realized this my fear subsided and I left the spider in my bathroom to do what ever it had in mind in its on little world. Fear, loneliness, guilt, anger, hatred, and all those negative emotions in life that we feel also have negative reactions on our physical bodies science has learned. Our immune system lowers as blood rushes to our muscles and our digestive system stops doing its job. Our blood pressure shoots up and a whole slew of harmful chemicals get released in our body when we have these emotions. Sometimes this is good for us like when a car in front of us slams on its brakes and we need to react at super speed. Here is another example that happened to m while sitting here at 4am typing this My daughter text messaged me this morning that she was not feeling well and that my mom was fighting with her to go to school. As they are fighting the whole attention went to how Lily was feeling like she might throw up and her fear of going to the nurse. What do you think grew stronger while we went on about this subject? The answer was her sick feelings in her body and her fear. If we could have shifted her thoughts away to anything good, positive, happy or joyful Lily would have lost all contact with any sick feelings or fear. I know this because I have to deal with that myself everyday. What I put my attention on grows stronger in my life. If I put it towards those feelings of guilt and loneliness I only feel guiltier and lonelier. When I can shift my awareness away to thoughts that are just as real but are happy and positive, my ill feelings go away and I can function no matter what my health condition is. What you pick to focus on becomes your reality, and since everyone around you has their own different reality don’t expect them do understand. That is a big step in learning to take control of ones own life.
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