12-29-2007 - Taking Responsibility

I want to so much do nothing to try and help myself right now and just wait until I get to The Chopra Center to try and turn things around. I was supposed to go there a month ago but we decided I was too sick and weak to go. Today the only difference is I am a month sicker and weaker but I now know there is nothing the hospitals will do for me. That brings up a new power within me, one that says do something now. I went to the grocery store this morning and got some good nutrition for me for the next few days. Like I said before I am getting nervous but also excited about leaving, it is best for me to really practice present moment awareness now.

About Yesterday

Yesterday seemed like a waste of time to me with doing nothing but mostly sleeping, going to the bathroom, and being in pain. I don't have anything more to say about it.

I do know I better start doing a better job accepting where I am at right now, and doing a better job at taking responsibility for it. I do not need to wait until I get to the Chopra Center to start some of this stuff. Today is going to be about taking better responsibilty for dealing with the situation I am in right now.