A Spider opens a door

There is an Ayurvedic saying that goes back thousands of years before the birth of Jesus that says very simply, what ever you put your attention on will grow stronger in your life.
This morning while sitting on the toilet all of a sudden a spider dropped down in front of my face. My first reaction was fear and while sitting there I swatted at the spider and tried to kill it, but it was to fast and climbed back up towards the ceiling out of reach. While finishing up on the toilet I sat there staring at the spider realizing the only reason I wanted to kill it was fear from this little itty bitty thing. As I realized this my fear subsided and I left the spider in my bathroom to do what ever it had in mind in its on little world. Fear, loneliness, guilt, anger, hatred, and all those negative emotions in life that we feel also have negative reactions on our physical bodies science has learned. Our immune system lowers as blood rushes to our muscles and our digestive system stops doing its job. Our blood pressure shoots up and a whole slew of harmful chemicals get released in our body when we have these emotions. Sometimes this is good for us like when a car in front of us slams on its brakes and we need to react at super speed. Here is another example that happened to m while sitting here at 4am typing this My daughter text messaged me this morning that she was not feeling well and that my mom was fighting with her to go to school. As they are fighting the whole attention went to how Lily was feeling like she might throw up and her fear of going to the nurse. What do you think grew stronger while we went on about this subject? The answer was her sick feelings in her body and her fear. If we could have shifted her thoughts away to anything good, positive, happy or joyful Lily would have lost all contact with any sick feelings or fear. I know this because I have to deal with that myself everyday. What I put my attention on grows stronger in my life. If I put it towards those feelings of guilt and loneliness I only feel guiltier and lonelier. When I can shift my awareness away to thoughts that are just as real but are happy and positive, my ill feelings go away and I can function no matter what my health condition is. What you pick to focus on becomes your reality, and since everyone around you has their own different reality don’t expect them do understand. That is a big step in learning to take control of ones own life.