Don't Give Up!

In January of this year I was at a point where I talked to my parents about signing a do not resuscitate letter so I can finally die. I felt like everyone around me would be better off in the long run if I was not suffering anymore and needing their help. I was down all the way to 97 pounds when I made it out to the Chopra Center and all I knew was I didn’t want to be at home anymore in the shape I was in, and the direction I was going. Changes were made in my daily routine along with my eating habits. I started meditation twice a day for 30 minutes each time, and got daily massages to help me turn things around both mentally and physically.
My point to this is to show how in times of chronic suffering it is not too hard to want to give up, PLUS I wanted to show how in just 3 days of starting my health reversal in the start of the new year things did start to change, and what I thought just days before was the end, started to become a new beginning. Sometimes we need to just change our view of things and be open to the fact that the way we see things in the present is not the way it has to be tomorrow. Today I am 17 pounds heavier then I was in January, in fact I am 7 pounds heavier then I have been in about 6 years. I can actually look at myself in the mirror again and see the person that I knew I could always be.