- Yesterday started out in the dark morning when I was taking the dog out just after we both woke up. Shelly decided to go chasing after some deer as soon as I opened the door to the rainy cold morning. After chasing her down while we woke up a few neighbors I finally got the dog back in the house. I pretty much finished my day like I started it. When I took the dog out I decided to use a leash and as soon as I stepped in the yard I knew I stepped in smelly dog crap. Then right after that my stomach started acting up with a couple bouts of bad diarrhea right before bed. All in all it was a crappy day you could say.
- Yesterday I getting Lily off to school and then I had a good 30 minute meditation followed by a good breakfast. I was able to work out more during the day with my back feeling much better then the day before. I ate a lot of food yesterday but was smart enough to get myself to stop eating by around 5pm. This way I was finally able to have a night sleep with out my stomach feeling so full all night long. All in all it was a real good day.
- How can I have a crappy day and a real good day all on the same day? How is that possible? I think it all comes back down to attention and what I want to put my attention on. Whatever I put my attention on grows stronger, while whatever I take my attention away from diminishes. Everyday we all have bad things and good things happen to us, and it then becomes our choice on whether we have a good day or a bad day. I think that makes sense.
- Now what is making my darn stomach act up again? It seems to happen every time I come home from the Chopra Center. I will go up to two weeks with almost normal bowel movements and then it will change again. I can only come up with one difference of what it is I get out in California that I do not find at home as much. When I am at the Chopra Center the day is full of true genuine smiles on almost everyone’s face. Hugs are given out freely to just about anyone you talk to for more then one minute. There are also the truly healing hands of their massage therapist. These are all things that I do not get when I come home. The idea I think that can work is if the Chopra Center could bottle up some of that true genuine love and put it in a bottle called a hug pill. If they can just bottle that up for me then I would have everything I need back here in Pittsburgh to stay well….
- Actually since I might be waiting a long time for that pill to arrive, maybe I can use the power of being aware of those missing factors and put my attention on how do I find or replace those good positive feelings I find in California and bring them here. I need to change and take responsibility for what I decide to be my first step in finding my own hug pill. That is probably my best choice to keeping control of my health and my life…
