Patience

There is a reason they call people who are sick and have to deal with doctors or hospitals PATIENTS. Patients as far as it comes to sitting in a hospital are one thing I am an expert at, well most of the time, or sometimes. Actually patience is probably one of my biggest faults. I have no wise words to say about being patient or skills to help anyone achieve it. Patience is just not my thing. I have started many things over my life and never finished them and the reason was probably I didn’t have the patience to wait to see the outcome.
Today my goals are to gain 13 pounds to the 15 pounds that I have already gained back since January. I see it as a possibility only if I can control one thing, and that is my patience. Part of me wants to gain it all in one week, while the other part of me is feeling the pain of my Crohn’s disease acting up and saying, slow down and do it the right way. I have learned over the last 5 years one thing that I think can help me get the patience that I need, and that is make myself meditate twice a day. Finding the stillness of meditation is my reset button to keep on track. We’ll see how it goes…