Present Moment Awarenss and New Year's

There is no better time of the year to let yourself change your direction in life then December 31. It is a day that we want to shed the pain of the past, and then promise ourselves a renewal in the year to come.
I have learned over the past 5 years when it comes to changing my health that the most important thing I need to do remember to do is practice present moment awareness. We don’t let ourselves enjoy the present moment near as much as we should, and we certainly don’t make decisions in the present moment like we should. We might find ourselves acting on something with stress or anger and not even realize we had a choice not to let it bother us. The more we are aware of all our choices, the more we also get to decide what is the best choice is for not just me, but also those around me. That is the basics of The Spiritual Law of Karma or (cause and effect)

Lily Home

Just having Lily back home after a week at her mom's has turned my health around for the better. I missed her and I think the responsibility of being okay and happy around her actually helps to make me okay and happy. Strange how that works...

12-30 New Plans

Morning and new plans on a date to leave
for The Chopra Center.

12-29-2007 - Taking Responsibility

I want to so much do nothing to try and help myself right now and just wait until I get to The Chopra Center to try and turn things around. I was supposed to go there a month ago but we decided I was too sick and weak to go. Today the only difference is I am a month sicker and weaker but I now know there is nothing the hospitals will do for me. That brings up a new power within me, one that says do something now. I went to the grocery store this morning and got some good nutrition for me for the next few days. Like I said before I am getting nervous but also excited about leaving, it is best for me to really practice present moment awareness now.

About Yesterday

Yesterday seemed like a waste of time to me with doing nothing but mostly sleeping, going to the bathroom, and being in pain. I don't have anything more to say about it.

I do know I better start doing a better job accepting where I am at right now, and doing a better job at taking responsibility for it. I do not need to wait until I get to the Chopra Center to start some of this stuff. Today is going to be about taking better responsibilty for dealing with the situation I am in right now.

Reading The Ten Commitments

This is just a little more practice blogging for when I get to California next Wednesday.
I am reading what each of the Ten Commitments are from Dr David Simon's book:

12-28-2007 PAIN

I'm glad my daughter Lily is not here tonight as I found myself screaming in pain a little bit ago. It is now a little after 4am. I do not know why my gut shuts down in the middle of the night. If I thought there was anything they could do for me at the hospital I would go, but all they do is give me pain med. Pain meds also slow your digestion down to almost a halt. So, if I get pain medication I am also adding to the problem of my gut not working. Let's see how the day goes....

This is a picture of me with my old dog Sunny when we were in Colorado.
We are at the top of the Continental Divide here.

Finally 30 Minutes

I was able to actually sit with my eyes closed for 30 minutes today.
I did a lot of daydreaming but always remembered at some point to go back to my mantra.
My mantra is based on a vibration of the universe on the date and time I was born. From Primordial Sound Meditation. It is just a simple instrument of my mind to help me meditate. I think I was able to say it 3 or 4 times before my mind drifted away, but I was able to sit there for the whole 30 minutes, a good start!
I'm in pain and need to go to sleep...

12-27-2007 - A little about my day!

This is mostly still practice getting used to how everything works.
When I'm driving in my car it looks like I am going a lot faster then I really am...

In the book the Seven Spiritual Laws of Yoga by Drs Deepak Chopra and David Simon it makes today's focus of Intention and Desire very simple. "If you want something to grow stronger in your life, direct more of your attention to it. If you want something to diminsh in your life, withdrawl your attention from it."

5 AM 12-27-2007

I guess I am not going back to bed tonight.

We will see how productive my day is!?

12-26-2007 - My Health and Least Effort

I can't get my mind to calm down enough
to even think about healing at this point.
I tried to meditate earlier with it lasting about 3 minutes before I was up and walking around.
Getting myself able to sit twice a day for 30 minutes will be a big step in finding my wellness.

Below is my reaction to my thoughts I made in the video above. I was doing my best to remember that it was the day of Least Effort and its activating intentions.

"The 3 Most Important Things To Good Health is to:
Meditate, Meditate, and Meditate"
Dr Deepak Chopra

12-25-2007 - Getting Ready to Go

This is a blog about my upcoming experience of trying to get my health back under control on my own. I have had Crohn's Disease for 27 years and Epilepsy for about 10 years. The hospital says there is not much they can do for me at this point which leaves me 2 choices. I can give up, or I can choose to help myself. I like the second choice:~)
I am going to take a journey to The Chopra Center for Well-Being Jan 2-18 with my last week taking The Soul of Healing program taught by Dr Deepak Chopra and his partner and the medical director Dr David Simon.
This is the first video I made which is more of a practice for when I get to the Chopra Center

Lighting is bad, but I had fun making it. I had a crazy experience with time