One year ago

It was 5 years ago this month that I started to convince myself that eating and then throwing up was normal. At least as far as what was real to me, vomiting daily was a part of life. I checked myself out of the hospital realizing that if I was going to stay alive it was going to be up to me. I figured the best way would be was to just accept that throwing up my meals was going to be part of life, quit fighting it I thought. That is when I was lucky enough that the energy and information of the internet threw me some good info where I learned about a place called The Chopra Center for wellbeing. It was 5 years ago that I decided to give something that I thought was a little weird a chance. It was after just 3 days at The Chopra Center that I started a 10 day streak of not throwing up anymore. I showed myself that being sick did not have to be normal. After getting sick again I had to try what I thought was helping me and I went back the next month in September of 2003 and the same thing happened where the food I ate actually stayed in me. I guess the best lesson I can learn from that is to realize that what is real and normal for me today, doesn’t have to be that way tomorrow. How I view things, my choices, and my will to survive can in the blink of an eye change my life for the better.