Time and Pure Potential

I catch myself at times asking why is it taking so long for me to gain more weight. I know I should be 10 pounds more, but seem stuck at my current weight, it seems like it is taking forever. Last night I was watching a TV show that I thought was really good and 30 minutes went by in what seemed a blink of an eye, while when I did my 30 minutes of meditation my mind was racing and the half of an hour seemed to take as long as it is taking to gain some weight, forever. Time is controlling our lives but time also seems meaningless. More people die of heart attacks on Monday Morning then any other time of the week. I was listening one day to Dr Deepak Chopra talk about a flighty bird that is building a new nest. As the bird flies around gathering twigs for the new nest, it might without reason just stop and eat a seed, or chase another bird that comes to close. The bird that seems so over active and flighty is actually living its life off of natural impulse. It still has its purpose of building a nest, and it will finish its goal of building it, but the bird has no time line or clock telling it when its time to quit and go do something else. In a way the bird is living a life of constant miracles or a life of pure potential. Now getting back to dealing with my pain of wanting to gain more weight right now. I think I better take a closer look at the bird building its nest. If all I focus on is my intention of being 10 pounds heavier while not looking at what is best for me, I will lose the power of pure potential and no miracles are going to happen. But if I stop thinking so much about time and my ending goal while putting my focus more on the present moment and what is best for right now, I’ll find more then just 10 pounds on my body at the end of this journey. The stress, the self judgment, and the defenses I build in my mind will go away, while my body gets what it wants and needs.