A little more feeling sorry for myself...

I added the picture of me to the blog that I am not sure I can handle. I want to be 20 pounds heavier then that picture. I had a little bit of the “what ifs” today. Like what if the 18th of January rolls around and I am not doing better. I am not going to come home and just be sick at home and will not go to a hospital, so what happens if…. I guess I don’t have to have an answer to that one right now. BTW when the snow melts off the trampoline I will show you some real flips. Healthy videos might be a little easier when I hit Southern California. All I can say is I turned things around before and have seen so many people control terrible illness that I know there is no reason why I can’t find the proper balance once again. I’ll leave my question for my new doctors David Simon and Deepak Chopra.