Keeping in control of my calmness

I was driving up to the grocery store when things got a little hectic with people in a hurry coming in all directions wanting to get to where they are going at a much faster pace then I was moving at. At first my mind started to catch up with them wanting to get competitive for a spot on the road or feel anger when someone cut me off. All my past 10 ten days of peace ended just like that in a matter of seconds. It was awareness of these feelings that brought me to the answer that was best for me. It was running and hiding from all this craziness, it all became about just keeping the peace inside me. I realized I didn’t have to rush and become part of the outside world in the way it wanted me to, but I could still be part of everything going on with me under control of how I reacted to everything around me. As the day went on and more things happened that I was so used to being the trigger towards negativity, I instead chose to keep a peace with in myself. It is like my meditation was this morning where I have the gas company outside my home with jack hammer’s and equipment tearing up my whole street and creating a mess. I could have easily let it bother me to the point where I decided I couldn’t meditate, or I could take the choice of putting my focus on the inner silence that I have and spend 30 minutes enjoying that and not even really noticing the noise outside. It goes back to the ancient Ayurvedic saying “what ever you put your attention on will grow stronger in your life, and what ever you take your focus away from will start to dwindle away.”


This is a video I made that you can do along with me to see a new understanding of mantra meditation that I discovered a couple days ago. (learning to let it go)